Day 365 - Thursday December 13, 2012

Tomorrow it will be one year since the accident.  Again I am having an emotional day about things.  I have decided that when the accident happened, Mark and I had to be the strong ones.  We had to stay tough for the family.  I actually cried very little during the whole hospital stay.  Also, I was the one that was with Bridgett early in the morning when the doctors came in each day.  Many times they were the bearers of what seemed bad news.  I couldn't be crying during this time either.  Anyway, I told Mark that I think I have been saving up now for the last year and I am finally crying.  This seems silly I know because Bridgett is really doing so well.  But, at some point you just need to cry about things to work through them, and apparently that time is now.  Part of the time I was with Bridgett crying, even though I hated to do that.  But, no one else was available and so there I was.  She was so cute.  She first said...I'm sorry you have to cry because of me, it makes me so sad!  I assured her that it was OK and apologized for crying.  Then she kept saying funny things to try to cheer me up.  I was alternatively laughing and crying and it I'm sure it would have been a strange thing to see.  Anyway, I finally pulled it together and I was doing better until Mark got home.  Then I hugged him and cried some more.