Second year Day 5 - Tuesday December 18, 2012

So, a week until Christmas.  I haven't spent time shopping yet, other than a few things online and shopping for Jenn's family while in Utah.  I need get going so that everyone has something for Christmas. It will be a difficult Christmas for the family, remembering Dad's passing last Christmas Eve (while Bridgett was still in a coma).  All in all it was a very hard Christmas for our family last year.  I do know that many people have hard Christmas's and I have always been mindful of this fact....it just hasn't happened that we have had such a hard Christmas until now.  Bridgett is supposed to be reading some national news and then discussing it with the family.  We are trying to get her up to date about things that people will be discussing when she returns to college in the future.  Last week we discussed the launching of the satellite by North Korea.  Today we discussed the terrible shooting in CT.  It's a depressing subject, but will be discussed for a long time and she needs to know about big events.  I know that these people will have a VERY hard Christmas without their little babies with them.  It's just so hard!  But of course, with we all know that those who have passed are in a much more wonderful place---it's just so hard to miss them so much and to not have them near to hug and hold.  Mom...I know how hard it is; we love you and think of you daily! In fact, today Bridgett said (with distress in her voice) I'm so sorry I lived if Grandpa had to die because of me.  I reassured her that she was supposed to live and that Grandpa had already lived a wonderful life.  He was there to help her wake up from the coma and get better and he would have wanted to do that I know.  He is watching over our family now and I feel his influence from time to time.