Second year Day 287 - Thursday September 26, 2013

Today was my birthday.  It has been a long week for me and actually I was tearful for the morning anyway, and not really in the mood to talk.  There are just so many things going on right now in life and sometimes I am just, well, I guess overwhelmed!  All of the kids gave me a call and it was so nice to talk to them.  I had planned to be in Utah this week, which would have been sad to not be at home, but at least I would have seen Arri, Jenn and Scott and families.  I miss the grand kids and want to give them hugs!  I am hoping that we get plans together to see Faith soon.  It is very hard to not know exactly what is happening.  I guess it was a day (week) of seeing things and knowing where we are and where we need to be, in every aspect of my life.  Anyway, I try not to let things get me down, but sometimes they just do.  I couldn't even get a dinner planned where we could eat together, because work is so busy right now.  Of course, that is a good thing.  But, I can't figure out when we can all eat together.  Maybe Saturday Mark will have a little time, although he has a wood project in the morning and then I have the women's broadcast in the evening.  I am hoping to get away for like 90 minutes by myself and just have time to contemplate and enjoy the meeting myself.  We will see how things go!  Anyway, I think I did a good job of being cheerful to everyone, so that no one knew I was upset (hopefully!).  It ended up that kind of by accident we got to eat together.  Mark had gone to help a member in the morning and got tied up there for so long that there wasn't time to go into the office. So, we got to have dinner together!  It was really nice.  It was a much happier evening for me.  I have been a little sad that the entire time I've been homebecause Mark has had to work very long hours.  He isn't able to be home in the morning to help like usual, but leaves at 7:00 a.m. and comes home like at 9:30 or 10:00 p.m.  I finally said to him one evening, when I'm gone we don't get to be together, and this time when I'm home we don't get to spend any time together.  It's been frustrating.  But, we've owned our business for many, many years.  I do know that when things are hopping, we need to take on as much as we can so we don't regret it later when there's nothing going on.  I am being grateful for the work that we have right now.