Day 149 & 150 - Friday and Saturday May 11-12, 2012

Well, this week has been an emotional time for me.  First I walked into a store and saw the memorial day displays and started thinking about my dad.  I really never had much grieving time for my dad, since he passed away while Bridgett was in a coma.  So, I have been doing a lot of thinking about dad this week.  Then today we had a hearing for legal guardianship of Bridgett and that was very emotional.  I spent the last few days trying not to worry about it--worry about whether or not the court would appoint us as her guardian or decide we were somehow unfit--and even though I know we aren't unfit in the least, but I hate having my life directed by unknown people and having that feeling that things are out of our control.  Anyway, the hearing went fine and we were appointed her guardians.  Since Bridgett is over the age of 21 she has to have a guardian to make all of the legal decisions or decisions regarding her care.  This whole process was initiated months ago when it became necessary for us to act in her behalf and we were granted temporary guardianship.  Then this hearing had to happen to decide what to do next.  We will remain guardians until the time that Bridgett no longer needs guardians.  The court will revisit this matter in one year.  Also this is an emotional time for me for this reason..leaving Provo is the final step in closing the chapter on Bridgett's life here at Alpine Village.  It was very hard for me emotionally when we cleaned out her apartment and now I am feeling it again as we prepare to leave Alpine Village.  Bridgett had her life before the accident and everything was going just great...she loved school and had finally settled on a major that she loved, she loved her life here socially and was happily dating someone that she had strong feelings for, she had many friends that she loved to be with, she loved her roommates...especially since her sister was one of them and they had many fun times together.  All around life was great and then in a shocking moment everything was changed.  It all just takes time to emotionally process things.  I know that Bridgett will again have a great life..that things will be amazing again.  However, I still have feelings and I have to process them. So that was Friday.  On Saturday I picked up Jenn and my mom and we headed up to Salt Lake cemetery to put flowers on dad's grave.  I knew I wouldn't be here for Memorial Day and I just needed to go.  We all had a very nice visit and ate some lunch together and spent some time at the cemetery.  It was very nice to just focus on dad and mom for a bit and talk about them and about some of our feelings through these past few months.  Everyone else was back at the apartment packing and cleaning and I hated to be gone too long, but it was a nice break for me.  I am so grateful to my parents for all they have done for me and especially at this time I have so many tender feelings for my dad.  I know that he has helped Bridgett so much and will continue helping her.  I already blogged before about how she told us a couple of months ago that grandpa came and talked to her whenever she needed him and she loved him.  We all love you dad and miss you!  Jenn reminded us that dad would want us to be happy and to have fun and that is what we are trying to do.  Saturday evening we all went to Jenn's for an early Mother's Day dinner.  We plan to fly home on Sunday evening.  After a very nice meal and some good visiting...including a short visit from Jamie....we headed back to the apartment to finish cleaning.  It seems so strange to think that we have been here in Provo for five months--almost to the day.  Although we will miss Jenn and her family so much it will be so great to be home again.  Bridgett is very excited to go "home" and sleep in her own bed.  We all have great hopes that this will really help with her amnesia.  Please pray for our safe return home as well as continued healing for Bridgett and return of her memory.